Sunday, December 19, 2010
Christmas is fast approaching and I have been so slack all year in my blogging. I really want to do a better job in 2011 so I will try to buckle down. Things have been really strange this year in that money has been extremely scarce, but I am feeling so happy and content. I do worry at times, but not like I have in the past. My life journey this year has taken a turn for the better. I find myself on a wonderful path surrounded by an extraordinary group of friends. I don't always talk to all of them as much as I would like, but their presence in my life inspires me none the less. Some of them I see more often than others due to work, but all of them have a special place in my heart. As far as our journey with Greyson, I have found myself in a different place with that too. I have always felt that a person needs to go to extremes before finding a happy place midway. When Greyson first got diagnosed I filled my days and nights with reading books, web sites, articles, and anything I could put my hands on regarding Autism/Aspergers. I needed that information to have a basic understanding of it. Through the years I have come to understand that the most important thing to study and understand was right in front of me. Greyson was the best way to learn. Mainly because if I was a student to him, who he was and how he ticked, then all the rest would fall into place. Especially since the Autistic spectrum is soooooo broad. Greyson fits all the general characteristic of Aspergers, yet, then again, he is so different. He seems so atypical at times and so extravagant at others. He is just Greyson and we would have him no other way. He recently turned 10 and is showing alot of I am 10 and I know everything behaviors. Mr Sassy pants some days then so gentle and kind hearted the next. He has always been very sensitive and tender hearted. One of his classmates lost his mother to cancer recently and he insisted on going to the funeral. I wasn't sure it was such a good idea but he was fine. He internalizes so much and his feelings run so deep that he can really worry us. I have never seen such a young person have such intense feelings as he can have from just hearing about a death, or listening closely to the words of a song. He seems to spiral into a place almost untouchable at times and it scares me. To be so young yet so deeply in thought. He had alot of questions and was worried for his friend but he handled himself well.
Today we went finally and got a Christmas tree. We weren't sure we were going to be able to get one so we managed to find a "Charlie Brown Special". Greyson had been hounding us to get the house decorated. I was close to putting lights on the damn vacuum cleaner and calling it a day. hahahahahaaa Can't you hear us now..."Oh hoover tree, oh hoover tree, why has thou lost thy suction? Your big long hoses...reaching out. To find the crumbs that lie about...oh hoover tree oh hoover tree..." Blah blah blah...you get the picture! (Sense of humor still intact!) so...We now have our tree and it's only fitting that while we were decorating it Greyson said, "It doesn't matter if our tree is small. What matters most at Christmas is our family." Enough said big man...enough said! Hears to you all extended family and a cast of most wonderful and supportive friends! We heart all of you!
On a side note, we actually saw the batmobile on our way home. Definitely a sign from those on high.